Candle In A Storm Poem

To mum,

For all the times I made you cry those that I did not listen

Even when I disappointed you

Forgive me

For every moment I never cherished each time I made you sad

Or when I disagreed with you and made you regret I am sorry

Pardon me

For sometimes not understanding

For assuming we will always be together

Not telling you how much I love you when the chance seemed to slip away

I apologize

For not saying goodbye to you for allowing myself to regret now

For the times silence seemed fine when I had questions to ask

Now I need to let go

For I know you are proud of me even when life seemed unfair

You loved me to the end

I want to cry now but I know I don’t have to

Because sometimes I feel I have not cried enough

Other times I feel I cannot cry enough

You may never come back home my heart is where you are

For the times we laughed together

I am grateful

I am thankful

For each graceful moment God gave us

Every bit of experience we shared all the joy we had

And sometimes even the silence that we both understood and enjoyed

I appreciate

Your love when darkness covered me when despair loomed over us

You never stopped loving me

You will forever remain in every part of me

I know I cannot explain everything or comprehend why

Or even answer the reasons I know life was good for us

I miss you most days some days I want to give up

Others I wonder how, why, or what each time I think those thoughts

I have to remember you are still there slowly I try to bring sunshine

One by one the stars shine it won’t ever be the right time to be happy

My life used to revolve around you now I do not know where to begin

I feel lost you need to know I cannot do this alone

Understand I need you even though you are gone

You still live in me

And I will not stop asking for help not answering

Does not mean you don’t hear

You are and will always be my mother…my life…my existence…

Now I can tell you goodbye I never had the courage before

I know you understand why now I can face the reality, truth

Knowing you have not left me alone you left me with family

Goodbye mother I love you

I promise I will see you again