For all the times I made you cry those that I did not listen
Even when I disappointed you
For every moment I never cherished each time I made you sad
Or when I disagreed with you and made you regret I am sorry
For sometimes not understanding
For assuming we will always be together
Not telling you how much I love you when the chance seemed to slip away
For not saying goodbye to you for allowing myself to regret now
For the times silence seemed fine when I had questions to ask
For I know you are proud of me even when life seemed unfair
I want to cry now but I know I don’t have to
Because sometimes I feel I have not cried enough
Other times I feel I cannot cry enough
You may never come back home my heart is where you are
For the times we laughed together
For each graceful moment God gave us
Every bit of experience we shared all the joy we had
And sometimes even the silence that we both understood and enjoyed
Your love when darkness covered me when despair loomed over us
You never stopped loving me
You will forever remain in every part of me
I know I cannot explain everything or comprehend why
Or even answer the reasons I know life was good for us
I miss you most days some days I want to give up
Others I wonder how, why, or what each time I think those thoughts
I have to remember you are still there slowly I try to bring sunshine
One by one the stars shine it won’t ever be the right time to be happy
My life used to revolve around you now I do not know where to begin
I feel lost you need to know I cannot do this alone
Understand I need you even though you are gone
And I will not stop asking for help not answering
Does not mean you don’t hear
You are and will always be my mother…my life…my existence…
Now I can tell you goodbye I never had the courage before
I know you understand why now I can face the reality, truth
Knowing you have not left me alone you left me with family
Goodbye mother I love you
I promise I will see you again