Umbrella For My Tears Poem

I’m at that point in my life

Where I don’t want to exist anymore

It seems my life is never getting better

I feel like I am in this existence

Of a black hole with no end in sight

I don’t think I want to be here right now

I want life to get better not be this worse

I am wasting away and I need to get out

It’s not that I don’t care what happened

I just lost passion for life

Everything I loved doing I lost the energy for it

Honestly these days

I don’t have the will to fight

I have given up

On everything

Because it never seems to matter

Whether I do something right o or not

I am spaced out and I feel nothing

I hate being scolded like a little child

I am tired of feeling guilty all the time

My chest is tired

I am exhausted by it all

I need to move on,

Get a job and move into my own house

I need to start over my life

I need to feel like I am living again

I want my life to make sense again

I need to believe there is something worth it in my life

That I matter not to somebody else but to me

I need to love me again

Have faith in myself, God and life

I am broken  beaten and defeated by it all

I am tired of fighting

Trying for perfection that never comes

I need someone

To give me an umbrella for my tears

A handkerchief is not enough

For the floods that are coming